It has been 1 month today since Brooke went to be with Jesus. It feels like an eternity yet the pain is still just as strong. The holidays have come and gone. A new year has begun. Life continues to go on.
Since this is obviously the most devastaing moment in my life this far, feelings that I feel have never been felt to this extreme. I read anything I can find at the bookstores and on line about coping and I guess I am pretty textbook with my thoughts. I guess it helps knowing I'm not wierd. I am at the point where I feel I need to talk about it but don't want to talk about it. It does make me feel good when people ask me about her even though I break down every time I hear her name.
I have decided to turn this blog into my outlet. I can freely talk about her and whoever would like to comment can. My heart is so full of emotions I hope I can make sense of them.
She has changed our lives forever. I need to write down my thoughts. It makes me feel like she is still close and I never want her to fade away. I know she wont but in my crazy head I feel that if I "move on" I will be without her. That hurts as well.
So Brooke... mommy is here and will ALWAYS be here for you! I love you!
1 comment:
Hey Jodi,
This is a great idea. Just remember we are always here for you guys. And we love you.
Life gave you lemons, but God definately gave you a bowl of sugar to go with it.
Brooke was the sweetest little girl and now she is the sweetest little angel.
She is always there watching over her mommy, daddy, and big bro.
She be with you always, too.
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