This week I returned to work. It was a very difficult week. The last time I was there I had a big belly. I work at a couple different Assisted living facilites and run into several people throughout the day. I couldn't help but try to have tunnel vision and just try to see as few people as possible. When I did see somebody of course they would ask with a big smile on thier face how was the baby. It was extremely difficult having to say the truth. I felt bad for them knowing they were just being friendly and now they felt awful and had no idea what to say. I wanted to say something to let them feel better but all I could say was that it's OK. I'm not sure how they took it but that is all I knew to say. I know as I run into more people I will be asked that question. It is hard having to respond so many times. It brings up a flood of emotions which I can control only sometimes.
I know the more I talk about her the easier it will get. God is helping me cope. As I start a new week I will continue to see more and more people. I hope I don't break down.
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